I wasn't gonna miss him until last night happened

on the other hand, I get to live in NYC with my best friends for the semester and I plan on reverting back to my wild days and party ways

also not looking forward to going back to NY. how do I explain to my family that they're incredibly toxic and I will not be talking to them for the next 3-4 business months? open to suggestions

currently planning on marrying an oil sheikh when I live in Kyrgyzstan with my step mom this summer, wish me luck!

so. here's the thing. I have been seeing this guy and we have fun, which is why I continue to entertain myself with him buuuuut, I realized that I have never actually been with someone who I physically or mentally attracted to. I've gone for the easy ones that I knew without a doubt I could trick into loving me. I get obsessed, infatuated with the idea of people, who they could be, romanticizing them beyond belief. I met this one guy while I've been here and for the first time ever, I got butterflies the first time I laid eyes on him. Of course, he is the best friend of a close friend of mine and therefore off limits and of course, I am leaving in two days and will probably never see him again. but I want him and I want to know him so bad. *deep sigh* I should know better by now that no one can ever truly know someone else.

something about the fact that none of you know me and definitely never will is just really comforting.

hello to my 85 loyal followers. 2020 was wild and incredibly shitty, but I think I am getting this life/adulthood thing down and coping pretty well with the weight of the world I put on myself. I want to start using this platform again for mindless drivel and drug/boy/existential crisis related thoughts. Stay tuned lovelies xoxoxo

it's been awhile, but after a summer-long mental breakdown, a belly-button piercing, a tattoo, and a lot of meditation/growth, I'm finally getting to a better place

“When you’re in the middle of nowhere and all the things that normally inspire you are gone so your only source of emotion is a pretty boy who will eventually stop talking to you, making you feel jaded and superficial” yaaaayyyy

ew I made this account when I moody and angsty and now everything I posted is just cringey wtf

not a relationship person...... but loving someone seems really nice right now

feelings of numbness, emptiness, and loneliness

do I get a tattoo, dye my hair, or get more piercings?

dumb bitch juice was just CHUGGED