everyday gets harder. i miss you. i want to hear that laugh just one more time. i saw you last night...it was a double take. i thank god for that. it was the sign i've been waiting for for over seven months. you are in my heart, on my mind, in my head...every single day. i feel you. i know you're here. i love you kenny yi. you were my first love. you always will be my first love. even when i have kids, and they ask me, you will be. i want you to come back just for one day. keep bringing me those signs. i need strength.