Hey My precious son Again another anniversary is here to say your not. 6 years have went by already and still the pain and the hurt are fresh. So many people struggle with losing you baby boy. I wish you knew what a great loss you leaving caused us. I know as your mother you suffered great pain within that only you knew and felt. Those of us that love you would of helped but or tried but you werent one to share or complain much and you dealt with it the only way you knew how. I am sorry it had to be this way sad that i couldnt fix it. I know you found peace the only way you knew how but it left alot of sadness behind and always the question why. I will never let you go your memory lives on threw so many people. Your nephew has your beautiful eyes and your contagious laugh he is amazing son wish you were here to see him. I just hate that the gitls feel so much pain a big hole youve left buddy. I know that want your wish it is what it is. You are my special angel always on my mind and in my heart love forever

Hey son its the 7th a happy but totally sad day our cub is four months old yet you are still gone. Its been 71 months since ive seen your handsome face. I love you buddy life hasnt been the same without you so sad your not here. Graduation was so nice hated having the kids go home. Missing out on so much with cub i hate it. Brea and cub will be home in a month get ti love on that baby. He is so much like you its like dejevue uncanny. Son you are always on my mind and my heart aches for you i love you and miss you so much. Peace to you

im. Baby thinking of you as always love you Hey baby your mommas losing it couldnt get on for mothers day or on the 7th i couldnt remember the rite email it wasnt cuz i forgot you for one moment. I"ll never ever forget you my angel. I love you more than anything son. Today is your 26th birthday and kaes graduating its a proud day but a sad one. Trying not to be sad cuz its kaes day its so hard. I love you so much buddy and i miss you like crazy. Watch over us today let your sister kno you are happy for her. Cub and sissy are here wish you were to. Your nephew is such a joy i"m so sad you cant meet him thinking of you always hugs and kisses.

Hey Jerod i didnt forget just been crazy.Its the 13th and its been 68 months without you and i know this i feel it everyday. Aunt stella passed away and i know you are taking care of her. Son so much going on that id like to share with you. Went to be with our baby boy cub oh jerod he is so sweet and special and handsome. I missed the birth by three hours probably a good thing woulda freaked out im sure. was a scarey delivery buddy coulda lost that baby. Thank god for miracles. What a blessing that baby is. Funny son he does look like his daddy but his eyes jerod were yours so now i get to look at those sparkling eyes and see you in this angel of ours. He has kaes mouth just over all lokks alot like kae poor Brea she gave birth to him. Shes such a good momma jerod im so proud of her. Babys name is Byron Anthony son hes got two very special names and i know he"ll do them proud. Didnt want to leave him or Brea but Kae needed me and had to get back to the daily grind. I love and miss you always hugs

Hey my precious angel its the 7th and you know this day makes me sad. 67 months youve been gone and i cant stand it. I think we are going to be blessed on this ugly day the 7th and have a beautiful moment happen. watch over your sister please until i get there and keep her safe. Watch over Kaelen while im gone please. Hold on to me as i fly cuz i hate it. I love you son more than anything. Peace to you my angel. Your nephew is your namesake hell do you proud i know. hugs

Hey bud its the 8th i didnt forget you by any means yesterday. Ive been feeling a little under the weather so went to bed early and didnt wake up in time to write. Its been 5 and a half months since ive seen your handsome face. Been having lots of dreams about you lately and i miss you like crazy. Brea is getting readyto have our baby cub soon getting so excited. Kaes gonna be graduating soon so sad and exciting. She had one of your firnds come up to her and ask if she was one of the hurd kids its so funny cuz she looks so much like you she has some of your same mannerisms. She doesnt look like a boy by any means cuz shes definetly a beautiful young lady but you and her are so much a like. I love you so much son and my heart just aches for you and just know i always think of you and i'll never ever ever let you go ever. Hugs my precious boy.

Hey bud its been a rough few weeeks cant stop thinking of you and its making me depressed. I miss you like crazy. Its the 7th buddy jan 2014 wow 65 months have gone by since i heard your voice seen your beautiful brown eyes and gorgeous smile. I miss it son. Had a good holiday with Brea and Cody and our baby Cub cant wait for that little guy to get here. I love him so much already yet afraid to give him my heart sounds wierd but its scarey to love people. Just cant stand anymore heartache.This is also last year with Kae on the downside toward graduation and i dont know what i am gonna do budddy. Just lost. I loveyou and you are always on my mind and in my heart miss you.

Hey baby boy its mama its the dreaded 7th again. Its been 64 months of sadness for me i miss you so much i cant stand it. Some days are worse some weeks are worse this week has been awful. We ate jerod pizzas last nite & that made me sad they were good though. The weather is terrible dont know how i am going to go to work the roads are very scarey and i dont want to really risk my life but this is the busy time of year. Our baby cub is growing inside of Brea hes starting to stick out saddens me i dont get to see her everyday she sends me pictures, I wish they lived closer. Kaes doing good she a sweet girl and has a very nice boyfriend i know you<d like him. Buddy i cant even express my hurt to you when does it get better or easier i dont believe it doescuz i<ll never let you go. I love you so much.

Hey bud its mama its the dreaded 7th again and a thursday hate them both. Its been 63 long months without your loving smile to look at makes me sad. Brea and Cody are having a baby boy i'm so happy hes gonna be named after Codys Dad and you buddy. What a special little boy hes gonna be. Just sad he will not get to know either of you. He will be so loved and grandma will tell him about his special uncle. So sad son cant even express my sadness. I love and miss you so much still dont and will never believe you are gone CANT.Hugs and kisses to you my precious boy.

hey bud its the 7th again 62 months since ive seen your handsome smile. Brea came home to surprise Kae for her 18th Birthday it was awesome. Can u believe baby Kae is 18 ans Brea is gonna b a momma. Wow so many things happening. Not a day goes by that i have so many thoughts of you, I miss you something terrible. I love you with all my heart sweet dreams angel.Hugs and kisses

Hey bud its the 7th 61 months gone but never ever forgotten. I miss you so much and my love for you always always strong I love You

Hey buddy my space is being stupid and i cant figure it out so dont know if my first comment went through. Anyway its the 7th again and weve now been without you my beloved boy for 59 long months. I miss you you have my heart. I love you so much.