8 years... still feels like yesterday. I find myself wanting to pick up the phone and having a good long chat with my bestie. Write an email and vent the world away. I miss your support and understanding. That old saying you never really know what you got till it's gone, damn how true that is. I'm living with the hole in my heart that you occupy, some days are worse than others. Life's taken some interesting turns the last few months, most of which I'm sure you're smiling on me for. Kara is developing into such an amazing you woman, my little baby girl is gone but I love the fierce young woman she is growing into. Zarian has his ups and downs but he's a smart kid, he'll find his own way to get where he needs to. Kyran is still a handful, but I'm learning new parenting techniques and we are learning to work together, a team. We all talk about you often and miss you even more. They said time makes it better, but they all lied cause they've never been here and felt this. I miss you and I love you. <3 Me

7 years now. 7 long sad years and I still miss you as much as the moment I found out you were gone. I relived that day in my head today and damn was it just as painful as the first time. I still remember everyone's face and I still miss your face so much. The kids are getting so big. Kara graduated from elementary school this year. She's so beautiful she's making you proud. Zarian is getting so tall and he's still the sweetest thing around. Kyran is still a handful. I swear this kid is going to give me a run for my money. I think of you often in the quiet moments of my day. I miss you more than words can ever say. I love you so damn much. I wish you were here.

My love, another year has gone by and yet this deep aching pain has yet to subside. I still cry for you and horribly miss you. I think of you often and this month just seems to drag on to remind me of what is missing from my life. I swore some day it wouldn't hurt like this anymore but who knew that would take so long. 6 long years have gone by and so much has changed and deep down I know my life would be so different were you still here. I wish so much you were, it's so hard to go through this life without you. I have never found a best friend like you, nor will I ever again. I just miss you so much, we talk of you often and always know you are with us in our hearts. I hope you're at peace where ever you are, that's all I truly want. I love you so much love. &lt;3, Me