I didn't forget, there's no way I could. Myspace is almost a thing of the past and doesn't work the same anymore and it just kept timing out while I waited for my phone service to connect:/ We had our yearly camping trip this month. Just me , Willow and my brother were there, not many of us around or have enough time to go camping anymore. Willows 16 this year and man is she a real pain 85% of the time! I guess I deserve it thou lol. Will, I miss u, I nvr not miss u, still 100 times a day ur in my mind, ur there when I sleep, ur the 1st thing I wake up to, ur always with me, no matter where I'm at u always right there. I just want to be able to physically touch u and see u living life. I can't wait till that day! People are growing old, I'm growing old, Willow's growing up, everyone's moved on and away with their lives, everyone that is but me.... U had my heart in life and u kept it in death, there can be no other to fill ur spot, it's impossible... Even my brother has now found love and believe it or not he's getting married and every time I see them together I'm just overfilled with happiness and emotion for them. I couldn't be happier for them but I do admit I envy them. They will have each other to have and to hold and his bride to be has an amazing wonderful son that my brother adores as much as he adores her. They are really setup for a wonderful life together... I wish ours could have been the same,.but our story isn't done yet and I'm thankful for that, Im thankful to Jehovah God for the opportunity to see u living life again, to be able to hug u and see that grin, I'm thankful for the hope.....

Another year.... I almost died this year. I had a severe GI Hemorrhage and bleed out almost 70% of my blood in just a few hours. As they wheeled me into emergency surgery I was coming in and out of consciousness but I remember the doctor very clearly telling me that I might not wake back up. At first I was scared but then I thought of you and being able to see u again and I was at peace.... The only thing I was concerned about is Willow and my family being so sad and what Willow would look like when I saw her next lol. I made it thru and I did wake up and im being now. I still have procedures coming up but they aren't as life threatening as in the beginning. Time is spreading up so fast. Soon Armageddon will come and then Paradise and then U... I'll get to reunite with u. Will u remember my face? It's all so soon but still so far all at the sametime.... I can't wait till that day.... I just can't wait! Love u 4 ever❤️

There is so many aspects in life that time just flys by. Every new day endind a little faster than the day before. So many events you just want to freeze or just slow down. So many life events speeding by with a bat of an eye. All these things are true besides when it comes to you. Time is just lingering, hanging around, stretching every longing and my broken heart as far and thin as it can. One day it'll stretch to thin and I will break and my time too will end but I can't not long for that day cause the day I see your face again will take away all this pain. I miss you, I love u and I'm nvr not thinking of you💕

Hey babe... I've heard so many times someone say "has it been that long" this week that I feel like I'm in the twilight zone. YES it's been that LONG! To them I guess it just flew by but not for me. It feels like it's been an eternity since I saw ur smile.. Since I felt ur kiss, since I could lay my head on u and smell u..... An eternity.... I'm certain its been an eternity! Not a week, not a day, not an hour goes by I don't think of you and long to see ur face.... Who ever said that this gets easier has NVR gone thru it! They flat out lied! It doesn't get easier, it doesn't hurt less and you don't learn to cope. I can't wait for the day to come that when I think of u I know ur gonna be coming thru the door any minute to greet me and I can bury my face in ur chest and just stay there as long as I want! I can't wait to see ur face babe..... I can't wait! Ur ways on my mind and 4ever in my heart. I'll love you forever...

Another year. Another year has gone by..... Slowly ticking time slips away and i still find it hard to find reasons to stay... i dream of u all the time and inbetween those moments of being awake and asleep i can smell u and feel ur touch... when i begin to wake up i try so hard to go back to sleep! Its like losing u over and over again. I miss u.....

Not a moment goes by I don't think of you. I wonder who you would be now, what things you would have accomplished. I feel the sting and pain from that fateful day just like it was yesterday.... The sorrow, the guilt and the debt I feel I owe you has weighed heavy on me everyday single day that has passed. How I long for the day I see you again and this weight is lifted. I will always love you....
Forever yours
Kacie

Not a day not a week not a single day goes by that I don't think of you. I seen you in a dream recently and when I awoke just for those few seconds between dream land and the real world I again though you were here. When I realized I was waking from a dream I tried so desperately to go back to sleep and find you but u were gone.... You will never be gone in my mind and in my heart!

I think of you every single day. Your my first thought in the morning, all through the day and my last thought before I sleep. I dream about you almost every night. I can't believe its been 7yrs that you have been gone..... People will walk past me in a store and I will get a wiff that takes me right back to you, and for moment I drift away in my mind to a warm sunny day and we were at the zoo with little baby Willow and all was great. I think about seeing your face first thing in the morning, and how I would lay my head on your chest and just close my eyes and feel so blessed but then I'm ripped and shredded back to the ground and I'm forced to remeber your gone and suddenly filled with this horrible knot in my stomach and throat that I can't swallow, this helpless emptyness that remains there. I miss you so much. I'm so sorry to you and all your family. I would change it all if I could. I would put me in that car! 10,0000 times over I've wished it were me and not you. I'm so sorry I can't change it no mat

I miss you. I think of you 100x a day. I'm so sorry. I love you.....