To still feel you...
To know youre doing what you do...
Hearts are down; your dick is up.
You only assumed what you were doing already. <..3
Real men dont break their word for anyone. Too many lies. I had enough. Knowing partially what you were capable of doing to me, Phia & {Ishmael..Kaya} was and still is too much to bear. Nothing but lies. To absolutely everyone. Still realizing exactly what you pulled over on me & your behavior... ow. *Im sorry little buddy, no más.*
I allowed you deep enough to destory me to the core of my soul. I wish I could truly not care the exact same way you do. Its becoming unbearable. Its just too much. & of course, Ill never forget the way you deliberately increased the depths of the wounds you tore open. Again & Again. I just dont understand. Any of it... even when your secrets explained so much. Why am I the one that ends up forever broken when youre just out there poppin pussy to fill your "void". Why do I get the shit end of EVERYTHING? I forfeit. I want to to back to 19 and never set one foot in that jeep. I just want to go back. Or forget the past 2 years like I did the first 3-4 months. I cant keep fighting these battles. The damages are becoming unmendable.
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