I've been really wanting to talk to u and say that u are so special I was glad u have someone like u on my side through all the bullshit I've brought in our relationship u might not get this and I hope to god that u do so that u can understand that I'm truly sorry what I did to u that's why I always tried to make it up even when I knew that there was noway that I can get u back cause I was going through something that nobody could help me wit the drugs came really after I lost u I just couldn't deal wit the pain from all the stuff that was going on in my mind things was hard since I lost my uncle he was my only dad that I had in my life and I wasn't doing anything that he said do cause I was to bizzy trying to keep the family ok that I was not thinking about myself I was living off of a woman and I ain't never got down like that my mind was all over the place I couldn't focus on my main objective and that was to be a good man to u as well as have a job and maintain a stable home for us there is so much more but I feel like that's should be good enough for u to understand a lil bit of what was wrong