Daniel Ray Hubbard (My Feh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-ehg),
You probably won't see this post for a while because like your not a gehy homo like me and you don't continuously use a social media site that's been dead since the 8th grade. However, you will eventually see this so I should probably stop rambling like an idiot and just get started.
Since we were kids we always had some kind of drawn nature to each other. We were like this *crosses fingers* in Kindergarden . I remember like telling you everything, especially when I liked another guy. It was so cute because I'd have a crush on someone and I'd have you tell them, like Joey Flashians, but you already heard that story. Anyways, it's just ironic because you were my go to guy and now you're the guy. You always made me laugh, even without saying anything and it was so cute. Oh, and remember that time I keep bringing up when your Mom had to turn your shirt inside out and made me turn away? Yeah I looked. #Badass Anyways... I don't always tell you this but I have a lot more than just those few memories but that's another story or other STORIES for another day.
Today, your still my go to guy but like I said you're also the guy. When something happens to me you're the first person I want to tell because I just want to like have YOUR reaction and YOUR response. Everything you do is right even when it's wrong and when we fight, I'm going to be completely honest here, I'm not even really fighting over the fight, half the time time I'm fighting with you because I hate that we're fighting and I just want you to tell me you love me and that be the end of it.
God, I can't even begin to describe how much I regret breaking up with you the first time, even thought I also regret the second that was a different thing completely. I don't know why I did it either, well I kind of do but not really. I just know I cried and cried and cried because I was afraid I just lost he one, I just gave up my soul mate. I hated myself. I think I did it because at the time I was scared because you were my first REAL boyfriend. I never count that faggot in first grade, it's just not a thing I'm proud of. XD I was afraid that I was jumping into life to fast and I thought I should explore more. I would've done anything had it meant not ending up like (you know who).
Even after that we like hard core flirted because I was IN LOVE WITH YOUR SMART ASS, QUEERNESS OF GIRTHITUDE. Like hard core in love.
You're my bestfriend Daniel. I don't know what happened the second time. I loved you and I believed you but I was so conflicted because I wanted to believe her and I thought it would stop if she got what she wanted? I don't know.
Anyways, when I think of you I think of that day we drove to Kimberly Estates and we were major in love in the back of David's car but neither of us wanted to admit it. I think of the first day we hung out with Zack and walked and hung out to/at David's house. I think of the first day you asked me out and the beautiful night sky and the moonlight shining down on is, the chill of night hitting my left arm and your beauty radiating in front of me. I think of is fighting in front of Megan's house while I was high off my ass and just wanting to scream and hit you and tell you I loved you. I think of all of the times I was super stoned and I called you because you were all I wanted, all that was on my mind and I'd try to fight you. I think of all the times I walked of Lauerman's class and I saw your face and it killed me so badly and I just went to third hour and cried to Tristian. I remember your black jacket with all the wholes. I remember your tie die blanket. I think of the time I made you come to Zack's house and we fought there. I think of the beautiful feeling of home when you're around. I think of watching you sleep and breathe the night I stayed at your house. I think of making Zack drive me to your work STONED OUT OF MY MIND JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE DANIEL. My argument to Zack was, "I love Daniel, I have the munchies, and I get what I want.". I think of you coming to my house to play Guitar Hero. I think of when I came home from Up North and you were scrubbin' major and you thought you looked awful but to me, you never looked cuter. I think of me sneaking under your covers and not letting you in your own bed and you coming over and saying "Sabrina..." and I would just smile like a major dork. I think of long talks with Zack and confessing how I felt. I think of sitting in Mrs. Hutter's class and reading that message, "I love you.". It meant the world to me. I think of all the things I never said and should've. I think of texting you from my Mom's when all my girls were there and you sent me the first special "Goodnight text". I love you.
You're my everything Daniel Ray Hubbard. I'm not obsessed with you, I'm taken away by you. Everything you are.
The added bonus is that I can listen to anything and you'll love it too, you won't dog on my music because the majority of the time you love it too because we have the same music taste and that's the best part.
What I'm really saying is that I'm addicted to you, I can't get enough, and I can't wait to continue to grow with you and learn more about you and share more of me and just be us all the time, every day, for the rest of our lives.
With all that said, I have one last question to ask...
Daniel Ray Hubbard, will you do me a most righteous honor and marry me?
*PS: I'm sorry for making this public, I will take it down of you want but I want the whole world to know how much I love you.*