I miss you so much. I wish we still talked, you always gave me the best advice, and you were there for me through everything. I doubt you'll ever get this, and that's ok. Just know that talking to you, and working things out with you always made everything so much clearer, and I could use some clarity now. I'm pregnant, been married for two years. My husband was a drug addict. Up until six months ago. Before that, he was never there for me, wasn't home at night, cheated on me... I don't know why I stayed, but I did. Now I'm glad I did, but sometimes it rips me to peices, thinking about all of this stuff. Even though its over, I have this fear in the back of my mind that things might go back. They've been so good, I'm so afraid that could change. What if he wants one of the girls from before? You know I'm not like them. They are made up and pretty and know how to do there hair and clothes just so... me.... you know me. I just feel so insecure. I miss you max. I miss you so much. I love you,Amber