Always wanted boys and that I'm glad you got them or you would have a softball team of girls lol or atleast that's how I always pictured the future.. we wouldn't end up together in this life time, but keep in touch here and there. That's not going to happen now.. Now my future invision for the possible future is now a just simply a dream. You won't be there, I know you can't, I will close my eyes and wish you were there that this was all a bad dream. But it's reality your gone I'm just thankful I got to tell you how I felt the last time we saw each other and that's how I want to remember you. Drinking cocktails at chilies. I love you Nicholas, I always have and always will, I'm blessed to have had you in my life, I will see you one day my guardian angel