I finally feel like I am headed exactly where I should be, with who I should be with. Thank you God for answering my prayers in the timing that you knew was best instead what I begged for in the moment. Everything makes more sense now because I am only just recently ready to be the woman he deserves.

"Take me back to the start" - Coldplay

"Losing all hope was freedom" - Fight Club

"You think she's an open book,
But you don't know which page to turn to, do you?" - Cake

Apparently I'm just going to sit on my bed thinking about things all day.

Could anyone remind me again why I'm doing this?

Do you even know me at all?

"I have long feared...that my sins would return to visit me. And the cost is more than I can bear." - The Patriot

So, I'm listening to an audio book of a Pride and Prejudice spin off and a pre-wedding sex scene happens. My first reaction: utter shock and worry about the direction this is going for them. Any other smut scene in any other book regardless of marital status: ehh, could've been at a national monument in front of a crowd. (Exaggeration, but still my point stands)

"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul." - PN

I wish I could stay up for the 'blood moon' tonight.

'So I wait for you like a lonely house, till you will see me again and live in me. Till then my windows ache.' - PN