Oh Mel,It's been so long since I've come to write to you. Things are so different now. I'm about to graduate in May with my AA with full honors. I know you and Baby D are looking down on me and smiling. I miss you so much. I wish you could be here to see how different things are. I think about you so much, I wonder how you'd be and how DeAngelo would be. I don't come on here anymore- not often anyway. Your birthday is coming up and all I can think about is that you aren't here to celebrate it. Most times I feel so alone in missing you- but I know I'm not. I got to see Andrew's new tattoo for you and Deangelo, I bet you love it. I know I do. I haven't talked to your parents lately- after losing Little Bean, I just needed some time. I promise, I'll call them soon. They have been so good to us, I'm so glad we got to meet them and see you. I wish you were here. I wish that we could just hang out and shoot the shit and laugh and watch movies with Carlos. Kiss De for us- we love you babes! <3 <3 <3

My God, I miss you Mel. So much...
It feels like all of this happened a million years ago sometimes, but most of the time it feels like it was just yesterday. I love you, I miss you. I can't stop wondering what life would've been like for you... for all of us. Kiss my kids and my brother for me baby girl, and just try to remind us all how loved we were by you, and how much you miss us too. And kiss D for me.
I love you both so so much <3