I have no way to message you this and actually count on you never looking on here. You were right. I would never love the same. I am so sorry I gave up. I failed you. I lamented and cried many years. I've been and down in life. Memories of you find their way into my head at night when it's quiet and I'm alone. The seconds on the clock tick as my tears fall. I remember everything. I wish I would have held on tighter. I miss you so much. I have never hated you. Just a little lost in life at times. I see you look happy and I hope you are. I just wish it was me still. It's a hard concept to think at the time when a sea of troubles arise.. I never thought I would spend the rest of my life without you. But I did things my way. I'm listening to come away with me. I know this isn't fair to even write this. I'm just very sad tonight and memories of the past visit me. Perhaps you have long forgotten me and I don't blame you. You will always be in a special place in my heart. You were once my Libby . but that was another life another time. It took a long time for me to say this and not sure you will ever see it. Kind of hope you don't. I wouldn't put it on FB. I didn't want to stir up trouble for you. Just a way to finally speak my peace. I pray for you. , my apologies for any heartbreak I ever caused. It pains me so much to think of any tear I ever caused you to cry. From the depth of my heart I hold no bad will or memory about you. Love always Joshua