I'm finding out that I legitly hate almost everyone on this earth. What happened to humanity and life? Why do I always feel so dark and decieved? This is not how life was. I miss smiling and laughing without having to fake it. I miss myself. I hate the fact women look down at us men now like we are all trash that's going to fuck them over. I miss being able to trust people. I miss being able to love. I miss life but want to get rid of it so bad just because I know it will never be the same. Would I ever do something so dark? Most likely no. Mabey there will be a day when I can run outside screaming with joy and happiness. Mabey someday everyone will not be so fuckin stupid and ignorant. Mabey someday I'll have a partner that actually appreciates me for who I am instead of what I am not. Mabey someday I'll look back at this and just she'd a tear of happiness knowing that I can succeed. I hope for that bright day, but still only see darker times. O well, fuck it!!