Death is what I yearn for be even it won't embrace me.

As much as I hate to admit it.... I found a girl that has the potential to be the one. But she doesn't have the desire to be the one. Fuck, Cinnamon Dunson.... Why did I fall so hard in love with you.

Feeling suicidal again only cause my skitzophrenia acted up two days ago. My friend Malcolm caughtme throing knives into rthe wall.... Yea. Idk how much longer ill last.

Still wanting her back. Maybe one day when the fog clears. One day... Maybe...

Still stuck on the mistakes of my past.

So a friend asked if he could Date my Ex. I don't own her so i can't say no. i'm not with her and she has done me wrong on multiple occasions. Hopefully this will help me get over her. As much as it pains me to do so. Good luck man.