Honestly, you'll never know how much I miss you. This site, this page, has been dead long before you and yet I can't help but feel here is where you'd hear me the most. We were so close, you were my number one person way back when this site was relevant, before things changed so much, before I lost you. Back when I could never imagine losing you. It was never an option, we were forever. It's been a month and you're still gone, how did this happen? How can you really be gone? How can my kids and yours be raised without being best friends because you're not here to make sure of it? I love you so much, so much. I still can't believe and I hate that you're not here with me. I type this through tear blurred eyes, hating the fact you're gone, disbelieving it's true but I can't shake it. What do I do now? Where are you? Why did you leave me here to just go on like nothing, like you never existed?