I finally broke

a poem just for you
I see thru the bullshit
when that bowl hits
forget it all
blow out the smoke and watch it fall
burn it all away
for our sins, we will pay
forgiveness is given to us
weather we are bad or good
god loves us all because we were raised hood
we might be different from others
but we are all still lovers
looking for the right person but finding the wrong
all the pain will will soon be gone in this run that is taking so long

catching feelings letting you in that's something I don't do. but I don't know how you broke through. confused because ei contiplateded on what could have happen and not on what will happen. so the next time I see you I won't have alot to say but the little that I do say will mean alot more then you're picture that is worth a 1000 words.

Idk what to do. she doesn't want to talk to me. she said she shouldn't be talking to me. what does that mean. am I getting to close? am I getting to clingy or needy? tell me something! I'm going crazy! please no don't do this to me. I need you more then you think. I told you my secrets I told you my nightmare. please I don't know what to do!

So much is going through my mind. what to do what not to do. but when I was talking to you it all went away. you actually where my escape. I didn't feel so worthless I didn't feel so alone. what happened? what am I suppose to do now? say something pls.

I'm losing my fucking mind here. I don't know why I keep going down the same god damn road. I hate this fucking feeling. it just gets me fucking angry and there ain't shit I can do about it! why does this shit happen to me all the time? I swear to god its like my life is just ment to be chaotic and never to see the light of day. I'm imprisoned in my own head and in my own imagination. Things I wish would come true but never do.

I just want to get drunk and fuck.

And then it ended just like that.... Fuck you.

In one hand I'm burning the match from both ends. In the other I'm tryin to hold on to you cuz I don't want to lose you. Where are you when I need you the most.

You are just like karma. you always come back around but the the difference between you and karma, karma teaches a lesson while you, well you just hurt me again.

You think I don't notice but I can see you are trying to push me away? So now I know it isn't just me that feels this between us. But everyday you fade from me as I get closer to another. Then you go and send me a message, that message, a message that brings me back and drops me down to your feet as you stand over me looking down and just laugh. And it just hurts so much.

I'm playing with fire and gasoline

Going through our old messages. remembering things from the past. smiling then instantly losing that smile because it hurts to remember. have to let you go but I can't. holding on to what isn't there. man I wish life wasn't so unfair.

Just thinking about you makes my day so much better but you won't let me be there for you. The fact that I care about you makes it that much more difficult to forget about you. I need to cut you off because I'm hurting myself trying to get you. And you can't even see that.

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