So, here I am again, talking, venting in a random but very loved online platform.My life so different than before, still listening to the same playlist btw.growing
up is not what I thought, it's really not that at all. weird thing is
that I never actually had expectations for my future. I only grew up...
but maybe some attitudes I have are not the most convenient now. that is
how I know I'd grown.If it wasn't because I feel awkward presenting
myself for other people just as I am I wouldn't mind, but I do. I
actually from all the things I feared in the past The most.. the one I
so dearly hold on for as long as I could it was to be left alone...and
guess what? now I yearn loneliness, like sweet memory of my past
loneliness that I can recall as bitter sweet but I love it. and sad or
good news?.. is that I am actually working on being left alone.. would I
ever regret it? or is it that I just lost all fear?.