realizing who is really there for me and who isnt...

My birthday has been bipolar this year turned 16 this year uhh not even excited on getting older :/

sometimes i feel unwanted by my own parents
They talk shit to me & if its not them telling me its somebody else thats saying that im not even part of my family but whatever haters #hatingmygreeneyes#wish#I#was#dead ..!!!

By U telling people that im a worthless piece of shit isnt gonna make u look better its gonna make u look bad because ur my mom #bitch#grr# bipolar#.|.

Every time i hear ur name my stomach getss butterflies even tho how much ive been thruw with you .. all i can say is that i still love you <3 #NR

Sometimes u gotta just go with the flow just to make everything better and make people think that u finally gave up but really your still trying

Its crazzy when u see an old conversation between someone u really loved & cared about. But now its like if we dont even know eachother :/

Sometimes cryying helps me release my feelings but at times i just cryy hard core cuz really i dont know what to do anymore :''( and nobody even bothers to ask if im okkay ..
#iwishthispainwouldgoaway!!# notevenmysiblingscare:''(

Maybe letting god into my heart will help me change my decions & actions maybe it will help me more in life. I just hope it helps me focous on me not on others. Its gonna be hard knowing i cant see and talk to my dad . I will try my best to focous on me and only me
#feelingbleesed#goodfeeling:')♥# missingmydad&lt;..3

When i feel stupid cuz i sent u a message and u didnt reply back :'( but i guess its all good :p
Smiling for a good reason :D

Garcias ♥♥

I wish i can go back in time and change everything that isnt right now :'( #SORRY!!#TEARS:'( #IMSSMYOLDLIFE#:'(:'(

Hearing about you with someone else kills me :'(
But i have to move on :'(

So much better with the lights off :p #♪♪

When i have kids i hope they dont go thruw this same bullshit im going thruw cuz this fucking sucks i really miss my dad !! I just dont get it why the fuck she not letting us see our dad !! She always said im always gonna let u guys see ur dad !. BULLSHIT .|.

I just wanna be around my both parents
I wish I could see my dad :( I miss him :(
I just wish him & my mom would just get along

Omg so much in my mind #thinking