well sweetheart here we are....idek if youll ever read this, I very highly doubt it...which is why its so much easier to write....I look back at your pictures and remember seein them for the first time right after I met you....how I'm your number one because you loved me....I instantly go back to us and wonder....where in the fuck I went wrong and why couldn't I just see.....I miss you, and was doin my very best to be what I needed to be, what you always said I was and wanted me to be....I am so truly sorry for hurting your heart...I am so very sorry for stealing money from your parents, when I love them as my own....I need you, and I need my family... I need your guidance as a wonderful woman, through how to be successful in life...not just in relationships....but growing as an individual...you are the best person I have ever met...and I don't want to believe the love we had is gone like this...it was too strong...and we were gonna beat it.....I found my way back sweetheart...