Just know i love you goodbye

Just Patiently waiting no rush

Just Patiently waiting no rush

Well dont i feel stupid...

I have social Anxiety and went to a christian school when i got expelled from high school thats something no one knows about me everything else about me is like watching the news everyone knows

Success isnt to far fetched... alot of people dont want it as bad so they just put it to the side.. they rather put time and effort to unnecessary things but their are made to believe that they cant live without it -.- open you eyes people do you want to be building your dreams or helping someone build theirs? problem is that now a days your spoiled and alot haven't felt any pain

Man all these little gurls getting pregnant at such a young age and then the baby daddy dont want nothing to do with them like what is this world coming too you got 12-16 year olds twerking on facebook worring more about how they look instead of how good they doing in school then you got these little boys yes little boys because they have noproblem with getting a girl in bed but are quick to run when they find out its their baby you your mature enough to have unportected sex or any sex in general you should be mature enough to handle the Consequences then you got show like 16 and pregnant that is made to show the young how hard it is to raise a baby with out finishing school or not having a job instead its making those girls on the show look like stars and its making these girls wana be on the show just because those girls are popular Society is so Corrupted now a days people think being bad is good and being good is bad...

Just wana hear those words "i want you to forget about me and move on" the stress and sleepless nights cant keep Hoping for something that wont come true...

Just wana hear those words "i want you to forget about me and move on" the stress and sleepless nights cant keep Hoping for something that wont come true...

Ill probably make this a every night thing just come on this knowing no one will judge me...well i hope no one judges me freedom of speech right lol (tbh my notes app on my phone is full) anyways here i go... Ever think like theres no one out there for you or that your not cute enough some people think that then theres others that had/have that one person they can run to a brother/sister mom/dad cousin best friend etc. and just let everything out every little word tear punch kick what ever they needed to let out they have that one person... Im one of the few who had that one person it was a girl friend (oh wow again with his ex blah blah blah yeah thats the reaction i usually get now a days but oh well you dont have to keep reading) but i was and ungrateful boyfriend and the most amazing thing i ever had was taken away from me... She was soo amazing still probably is just beautiful funny so full of life every day it was just something new that was a relationship nobody saw coming i never been so happy...then that one day in high school in the beginning of lunch on top of the bridge where it all fell apart believe it or not i always have nightmares of that day she always wanted to be around me as much as possible because outside of school we really didnt get to see each other alot i told her to go chill with her friends while i go with mine the look on her face still hurts me today (you know that pain yu get in your chest/heart area when you just feel like its being ripped out of you yeah that pain) ever since that day it went down hill badly then our 1 year anniversary mine and her longest relationship i was being such an asshole i made her cry on a day that shouldve been full of smiles... (Still have the shirt) no one should ever go thru what i put her thru she didnt deserve it now shes gone... I just wish and pray i can make it all up to her but theres nothing i can do be grateful of what you have dont play with it like its nothing because one day it will get you when the world is coming at you from all kinds of angles its nice to have a refuge someone you can go to when you want life to life "right" so enjoy what you have and dont make the same mistake i made cause in life there arent that many 2nd chances youll be lucky to even get 1...

But thats only if she wants me to keep that promise

Lol even tho she prob wont see this or even cares i still love her;yeah im prob not the one for her n its been like 2 years or so i still havent gotten over her she prob thinks thats creepy but its hard to no matter what i do i never loved a girl as much as i loved her n it hurts knowing shes not mine anymore i still get butterflys when i see or im around her her smile n her laugh lol (man i miss that) i still have everything she gave me every note even the shirt she made for our 1 year anny i just wish and pray every night that one day i can change her last name to mine like i promised her...