Found myself down a deep hole of self abandonment and resentment. Drugs and Alcohol were my life within the Marines. Cunning it cut me off from my real friends and family because it had me. 7 years of my own personal abuse with a million masks on my face. Now im in recovery climbing a flight of stairs that Baffles me. Powerful it tries to keep me in its grips for i am powerless. But with the light having already faded the veil slowly lifts and i walk aimlessly towards it. Stumbling and bruised from hatred towards my misdeeds i cannot seek forgiveness for most so i forgive myself. I fight a demon in the lowest circle to my freedom of self destruction looking towards a future fit for me. The demon breaths smoke and ash of my own transgressions filling my lungs with hate and fear mixed causing me to fall back. But with the power i have in my small heart, the love i have from my mother teaches me to fight and never quit. I throw my fist in the air beating the demon back with power handed down to me from birth. He pushes his face in front of mine and i look into a mirror within my soul. Trying to intimidate me but i am not a demon any longer. I am an an angel of light and rescue. I am a soldier of my people. I am a son of mercy, faith, fortitude and love. Strong am i for i will not falter, i cannot. I am ETERNAL! In fear the demon roars hot ash, i scream hope and courage back and defeat my inner self full of hate and pain. Chains hold him down and i triumph towards the Heavens. I seek self righteousness, Forgiveness and Favor in YOUR house. Teach me, speak to me and i will submit. God, Grant me the SERENITY to accept the things i cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things i can, and the WISDOM to know the difference! i am still apart of this world. I still live, and i will continue to live life. I will.