When I got pregnant with my oldest son Cameron his father ran out on us and it left me raising him alone but I thank god that I had my Mother and my family to help me through it. In 2005 we had our youngest son Braden who is a splitting image of is father let me tell you and still is, and in 2008 I got pregnant with our daughter Serenity who is me made over lol. When Serenity was born I was diagnosed with DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis) and Factor V Leiden Disorder if you don't know what Factor V Leiden is it is a very rare blood clotting disease. From that day I have been poked on every week to every two weeks by doctors having to take my blood to make sure I'm not in clotting mode. I have had a very rough and rocky life since 2008 and people ask me all the time do I wish that I didn't have my little girl because everything that happened to me after her birth NO I don't regret having my daughter and never will. It's not her fault that I got sick. I would do it all over again. In 2009 I attended College to get my degree to become a Medical Assistant and I finished school in 2010. At this time I can't go to work in that field because I can't stand or sit for a very long time. It's hard for me to get up and down. I can't even go outside to play with my kids. Everyone calls me names and calls me Lazy. I feel like a failure most of the time because I can't do things that other moms do with there kids, but I can tell you this my kids know that I love them unconditionally and they know why momma can't do things with them a lot. All I can say to the people who call me names is this.. "UNLESS YOU HAVE LIVED MY LIFE, DON'T JUDGE ME BECAUSE YOU DON'T AND NEVER WILL KNOW EVERY SINGLE DETAIL ABOUT ME... I Thank God everyday that he allows me to wake up and be with my kids and my family it's a blessing. I won't give up and I will continue to fight for my family. Times are really rough for us right now because my health is going down hill. I started out with just bi-polar depression and now I have anxiety disorder, high-blood pressure, chronic migraines, low potassium, low calcium, leg pain, back pain and the list keeps going on. I always ask why me I'm only 29 years old, but I always look back on what my family tells me God doesn't put things on your plate that he knows you can't handle. I'm getting stronger and will continue to get stronger. So everyone that judges me listen to what I have said because you don't know what I go through on a daily bases. It's not easy. Everyone see's me smile but I hold it inside because deep down inside I'm dying, and feel like a failure, but I will continue to hide my pain so my kids won't see it.. I love my Kids all three of them..