alters ...My self persona is a complete headcase with reason and drive and hell, motivation behind it....i have interest in artistic and/or graphic or offensive by society representative displays of emotion, art , and pain.

(Life doesnt ever get better, but we make the best we can w/o involving or others involving to make life infultrated and harmed especially by people with ways.Someone at some point will make this world better and they wont be able to. Even the less things where they think something. Theres always only one thing...)

"BLOODY ROOTS IN MY BACK FOR SPACES GIVEN INTO EVERYTHING TO EVOLVE A DEAD CHRIST OF VERSED WINGS CURSED TO BRING REVELATIONS AND ITS REMAINS ...DESEECRATED BODY TRYING TO REMEMBER CRYPTIC WALKS OF FALLEN CRAWLS NOW ONLY A BROKEN USED DICARDED DOLL"

I keep my head involved in making my own music b/c i san barely listen to anything anymore without putting my head through a wall because its to fast or high pitched. I write constantly , lyrics, death dances, expressive displays of dance in representative emotional pain disgrace , hatred, anger, , pornographic dialouge , silent movies, black and white movies , sepia, fetish performance art and pornography, BDSM, displays of artistry of the soul, or babel acts to display broken speech, verbalized thought and roleplay (not fantasy, I have none)

"BORN MADE"

movies, dark graphic sexual, dead , suicidal , empty, psycholgical , scene, skits, scripts, graphic, directive, depiction. Verbal dictation for every show, scene, script, display, and act,. Life expeirience thrown into a verbalized expression used with a form of theme display or a movie, raw , and felt from inside is good use as well then verse it into a dialouge of self expressive behaviior, my demeanor is probally decieving or maybe not...deception only applies to sex anyways so im upfront and gone through an age of denial and a decade of hatred, i m disgusted with myself while i feel like im an destoyed legends, so much power courses through these veins....im constantly stuck in suspension from a hole heavy for a bout a decade off and on and three years straight

THE LIGHT IS WHITE , AND SORROUNDING THE BODY IN AN ANTIQUE SHADE OF OFF WHITE. FLOOR COVERED IN BLACK, NEVER LOOKED UP, UNTIL I WAS INSIDE SPACE" GOD FOLLOWS ME.... WITH SOMETHING ELSE."

"HELLHOLES IN THE PISS MOUTH WATCH MY BROKEN LITTLE BODY STICHED OF WHITE AND FULL OF SEAMS , DARKNESS, AND FRAIL, MADE WITH DEATH FULL OF TEARS TURNING INTO HATRED, BORE OF NO WINGS THE BLACK BLOOD SOAKED RIPPED OUT OF ME FOR THE SUN TURNING BLACK INTO A SCAR AND WITH RAGE. "

"FOREVER WASNT ENOUGH, I WANTED IT ANYWAYS"

" ETERNITY IS WHAT I WILL END WITH"

Dead on a cross that fell upside down, my tears would turn to blood if this world didnt kill everything it ever had..... So im now nothing that god always wants. Im blasphemous, defiant and a servant of god and pain. Sun still is all dark inside, where no hope can ever live . I ve ti give hope or to see others ...there happiness is the only thing ive seen that brings me anywhere near feeling it ever myself. I have over a decade erased from my mind . The only thing i will ever talk about because everything else i cant....without dying more, or going back into the dark alone.....my own psychotic attacks of oppressive tyranny have disrupted my soul, to the point of a split trapped in the dark, and then the other side doesnt care at all with multiple reasons . " ALL THAT GLITTERS IS GOLD"

im not sexy not sexual, sub consious is sexual and innapropriate , a disgrace , a queen of manic depression and suppresive behavior, im, detached, withdrawn, similar to a specific autistic place, was numb now very dead, and past to a different empty, that half broken mess and half with ripped out emotion , i made myself angerless to be left with only aggressive behind, now im past anger with no anger yet its buried so deep with the loss and pain, I killed myself from sub consious bleeding pain of loss , a soul ripped out, while .... and touched by guilt that killed. The truth actually is"They destroy everything."

"A DEAD SOLD QUEEN , ROOTS BLED MADE, FROM BROKEN BLOOD SOULS , AND ONLY TIME, CREATED ROYALTY , TO CRAWL IN PISS AND SHIT, FALLEN, BORE OF NO LIGHT INSIDE , WITH ONLY GOOD, FLESH AND BLOOD. MUTATIONS AND EVOLUTION WHEN EMPTINESS HAD A DIFFERENT MEANING THAN WHAT THIS WORLD GIVES "