For 34 years I have gone undiagnosed til now, for me the cycling makes perfect sense-destroy rebuild destroy; I found out that I'm Bipolar...all the destruction this illness has caused is devastating, and I hope now that I am on lithium the cycling can now stop and I can have a normal life, least the parts left I haven't destroyed. I have a lot of work yet to do, the road to recovery is long, but I don't intend on giving up-even though things do seem pretty hopeless at this point, I still have to try. I don't know if anyone will ever read this or even care but if you do, I thank you for at least giving this to me and if you struggle with the same illness, I know your pain and my heart goes out to you-please don't give up, the dark is cold but there is always hope; seek help and support, you're going to need it to survive this and you can.